Confusion Reigns!

I'm not sure I've ever been more confused about my path. In the past, the answers always came easily to me about where I wanted to be and what I wanted to be doing. Sometimes I think the trials I've been going through lately are Karmic debts that I need to pay before I can go further. I admit it. There have definitely been times that I haven't remembered the parable about the plank or remembered about walking in another mans shoes.
Then there's that whole idea about God or the Cosmos speaking to me. I am getting so many messages in my heart that I can't hear them all. This joke keeps coming back to me.
"There was a man who was drowning, and a boat came, and the man on the boat said "Do you need help?" and the man said "God will save me". Then another boat came and he tried to help him, but he said "God will save me", then he drowned and went to Heaven. Then the man told God, "God, why didn't you save me?" and God said "I sent you two boats, you dummy!"